heartache addiction

looking in her eyes make me wanna cry, deep inside I lay and die. still awake swallow pills I take, need a break before this heart gives away. sway away from this dream I make mistakes with my own damn real estate, eating off ah paper plates. can relate with this pain I feel inside, heavy sigh. tell those lies that ya hide make ya realize that I feed it to you mealtime, dip off in the treeline just to hide. from your emotions In the ocean without a compass or a cutlass drop me little hints drop me little notions .death is near me can you hear me smoking trees just to feel me. staring down the barrell having fun on the run cause youre stunned, being spun, drinking rum, Florida sun, chewing gum momentary cemetery tell a story but dont bore me keep it gory predatory territory dont ignore me youre the one to blame bitch get out the fucking rain we know youre not okay bitch making more and more proclaims throwing flames through window panes nothing lost nothing gained brushing off all this pain that you caused the other day saw you last fucking may, damn girl youve lost weight , fucking great. back to addiction gotta be fiction and I miss you I need crucifixion cause im through reminiscing wishing we were kissing in the kitchen like were itching on a mission first edition sign petitions for posistions for the visions seeing prisms algorithms not revision wheres the white picket fence and television dreams that we missin. what does it mean when its way hard to swallow that we had to borrow for the lotto won today lost tomorrow. dont feel bad for my sorrows .keep em in this bottle that is hollow and in public housing sitting back browsing thinking damn I got em drowning in a liqour lake I quickly fade away and when I wake I pour more just to feel the same