Grew up fast

I grew up weigh too fast body bigger than age Got me advising order guys ,my size re never my friends Carry loads than my weight on my back but i do manage Emotions i dont show, body filled with rage i was forced to face maturity, exposed to things i never knew my Body was 18 and i was only12 ,Doing stuffs that grown ups do tryna fit in i started drinking Smoking weed to keep me thinking and i aint thinking straight no more coz the shit am taking is so addictive i turned aggressive, i ain't the person that i used to be can i reverse it,God gave me a talent and i slept on it