I don't know how to stop this body shaking making me wana vomit people saying keep you chin up you got this I don't got it had my world in my hands and I drop it I apologize a thousand time for the pain I was causing I hope one day you realize I wasn't the only one toxic. even though I know I was the one who cause most of our problems I take the cake but you was spreading the toppings put it all on me and so all your pain is the main topic and when I reached out my hand you put ur hands in you pocket. put all the blame on me and tell all your friends that I'm not shit. about how you was innocent. while i was nothing but demonic. acting like our love wasn't as beautiful as a nights sky full of comments you knew I had problems before them rings you was rocking I told you dark parts of my life so I don't get the logic you knew all of my triggers. that's where you was putting your paws at. turned around and use it as a reason to call me. psychotic understand with out you I'm like a crack head withdrawing I spend all of my days holding back the tears that keep falling. your the only that with the power to take me away from all this. it's sad to know ima be left alone when this shit all ends. being apart has change me like the trees when it August caus you the only one ill ever want in my court when I'm balling. no matter how far you go my heart will keep crawling even being rejected for the rest of my life my love will not end. fear of losing everything I love is what you hear when we're talking. this is the hardest fight of my life and I'm feeling so exhausted snd it brings me to my knees because know i no I actually lost it the separation is devastating enough to drop the nails in my coffen what we went through isn't worth that all the pain that's it costing. I love you more that anything in this world I should have said that more often. instead of leaving us rotting we can rise from the ashes and blossom. take off like a rocket. my love is not just an option when I put them rings on your finger to me I though we was locked in that means my heart will always be yours even if you don't want it with out you this pain is never stopping. because your all I ever wanted. and if you ever feel the same way again please.don't hesitate to call me.