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I suck with the bulk of my sorrows I let my path I didn't follow my past is a hard pill to swallow I'll just add it to the other pills I will swallow tomorrow I've had enough I've had too much you can borrow my sorrow my past went by too fast I never meant it but now I only remember the present I feel like I'm praying the price wrong in the right for another guy who's not in sight I can't even fight it's confusion cuz it's an illusion myself abusing has just led to me now losing before I wasn't choosing neither am I today that's why I'm not moving just feuding with myself I could just take this extra time and wine in my rhymes it's not like I'm sober and it's over so hardcore now just waking up is a chore I didn't know what I had in store I could take being poor even more my confidence is getting pretty thin with my dental floss I can so but this I can't mend don't have it within I know I paid the price is now something's missing i got to take the day today day try and get some work in there cuz it's all play and it doesn't pay I'm implying out for it to be this way try to keep the thoughts at Bay so to myself I say I'm all tomorrow time anyway I'm on borrowed time anyway I'm on borrowed time anyway for most my past would be too hard to swallow my footsteps I would never want followed but I kept solid not Hollow try not to be in too much sorrow not too many dollars borrow I never thought there'd be a tomorrow still plate fair but I didn't care living life like it was a dare holes in my mind and my clothes that I wear it's not that I didn't care you couldn't understand unless you sit in my chair now it's like my life is no I wasn't climbing in my mind but I wasn't planning to fall tricking the highest percentage beer whatever mall drinking to stop the thinking and no one that it's my fault wish I could stay home I wasn't looking for death but I'm lucky to have each breath I almost died I went far and wide lucky I have something left inside I need my friends lending me a memory because in my mind's eye I can't see you that's the fee and that's the payment I can't pay my arraignment and I'm hating self-discriminating live so much but remember nothing but it must have been something I vote deed more years than her inside me woke up on a stretcher I'm blessed but I was wretched most people after one time then learn a lesson there's no second guessing it started with luck and then it went from luck to I don't give a fuck if a shot was coming I wouldn't duck it was never enough so what now when I try to unwind I need my alcohol is strong as wine there's no line or denying why cuz now I'm stuck in the muck take more than I need smoke weed until my eyes bleed not planting the seed but taking the seed more than I need I left so much behind sitting here and why but I just look at myself and remind I'm just on borrowed time