It’s in these darkest moments When I’m desperate for some clarity Deep inside the barrel of a gun Is where I’m starin deep Can’t seem to find no peace inside a broken mind Wondering when God will come and take me Is it my time I’m running blind Thoughts of suicide is on my mind Drop to my knees Pray to the Lord God please show me a sign The effects of this depression is Weighing heavy on my soul Nowhere to go Can’t seem to pull myself Up out this hole Who would a known This would be my future Is this destiny I’m taking all these drugs And drinking alcohol heavily I’m fighting for my life An endless battle I can’t seem to win These struggles and the strife Prevents the happiness from seeping in I’m sleeping in Till the anxiety starts creeping in The devils on my ass Demons at my window steady peeking in Ain’t got no one to turn to When I’m desperate And I need some friends I’m all alone No one will give a fuck when I’m dead and gone Tryna beat the odds They stacked against me And it’s 10-1 God please send ya son I need Jesus as I fall to pieces Listen as I preach this A life of hurdles seem so leap less Tryna wean off all these leaches Let me see this For what it is Is this a cry for help Or just the times We live in Can’t break away from this life That we all sin in And I ain’t finished Im going in on all these critics That try to judge me when I’m at my low Get out my bidness I think I’m out The deep hole that I tried climbing out But something brings me back Every time that I’m in doubt I don’t do this for no clout It ain’t what this shits about Drinkin IPA’s and stout When I ain’t got no drugs around Tired gettin tugged around Don’t pull my chain Cuz I ain’t playin If you feel the words I’m sayin And the pain I feel when days end Isolate myself I think I’ll stay in Cuz I don’t want the world to notice when I’m hurtin end of the road the final show Let’s draw the curtains And to my family remain happy I know I been a burden I’m just tired of feeling down I know this much for certain My innards burnin And I can’t douse the flames I’m going through the bullshit And I’m the one to blame Steady runnin myself insane