The Unholy GunSlinger

this way I live I don't think God will forgive when I die I can't pray for God to take my soul on that holy ride I been fighting for the wrong side drugs and homicide I've taken lives threw drugs guns and knives most the time my life was the only prize ironic cuz it's also the price like a cowboy from the west gunslingin with the best I need to confess to get it off my chest so I don't stress about this weight crushing what's left only then can I rest when someone takes my best this way I live I don't think God will forgive when I die I can't pray for God to take my soul on that holy ride I been fighting for the wrong side drugs and homicide have kept me from the light kept me from livin right day and night this lone ranger been alone in danger ever since I was where I shouldn't have been I'm aware and I fear my days are numbered as I stare in the mirror questions of why questions I tried to hide answers to my life answers made attempted suicide haunt my mind this way I live I don't think God will forgive when I die I can't pray for God to take my soul on that holy ride I been fighting for the wrong side drugs and homicide I use to see myself as the good guy fighting the good fight but as my life comes crashing in reality of it threw a fit and I got a glimpse of how I really am and now I believe I might be damned due to these things I've done I can feel the fire in my lungs as I get closer to fallin in hell I think it's too late for help you just can't undo these things that we do bad choices will come back for you and then what do you do this way I live I don't think God will forgive when I die I can't pray for God to take my soul on that holy ride I been fighting for the wrong side drugs and homicide