Smoke the pain away☺️

I smoke the pain away. I’ve been going through some things. And my hearts keeps pacing back and forth. I’m just steady in my own lane My own thoughts. Do you know what it feels like to have nobody. Can’t even depend on-nobody. Can’t even depend on your own. Cause family Will taunt you. There’s a lesson to be learnt. Life is too short to be holding grudges. At the same damn time. Im still lonely. damn homie. I just trying to make it out the hood. I wonder what it feels like to have a Good life. Living lavish instead. of living in proverty just trying to figure my life out. Like god damn life didn’t come with instructions. Life will tear you apart that shit comes from the heart. What if everyone keeps talking about Me. What if they plotting on me. Like god damn homie. I just wanna get away from here. And just disappear. But I just rather smoke the pain away. but I rather face my fear. I’m having crazy flashes-backs. I’m having brain aneurysm like ptsd. All these emotions keep running through my Brian. Roller coaster peers keep it clear. I’m Hella gullible when it comes to love. at the same damn time I’m still shaken.