tell myself im done remember how she was, it fucks me up, i thought i found my love, but all i found was drugs, i still miss her touch, so much it feels like im nothing im crushed n wish i could do something other than using dope just as a crutch to numb me, keep circling down this drain, while my heart is breaking everyday, pushing everyone away, i lost my love n dont get chance to make it ok, what the fuck is there to say, i thought you said you'd never leave me as long as i never cheated, i believed it, then u forced me to leave, now we no longer speaking, never got a chance to plead or reason, didnt cheat or keep no secrets, only time i see u now is when im dreaming, im sorry for every thing i did, everything i hid, im sorry i couldnt become a man n stayed a kid, you always said i would miss you when we split, i do cuz i cant do anything to fix it, im sorry imma piece of shit im so low i dont even deserve closure, my pain will never smolder, still im losing my composure, holding out for hope thats not there just another dumb loner, youve probably fallin in love.again, with another man whos got a job and a plan, and a stronger attraction, cant fight the passion locking eyes n holding hands on our bed, youll never forget me while ill always live with regret, i miss our time together, i miss the times i was actually doing better always thought it was gonna be us against whatever forever, i wish i woulda got better, but your probably better, i miss our playful days, or that night you kept me safe from the rain, by stretching n holding that bag n place, thatll never go away, thatll always remain to cause me more pain, then ill remember looking to my right while driving n seeing your beautiful face, sleeping that day coming back from the lake, even joselyn was n the back doing the same,