So much weight on my chest .I feel so alone don't know how to express the stress in my heart the wounds in my soul the pass at the past!!!!.But I caint let it go and it breaks me ..... I'm so depressed and I feel ashamed. Poping pills everyday so I don't feel no pain .Cause I'll say shit I'll never say shit cause everytime I try it's like hear the same shit..... H you'll be just fine you just gota give it peace and time 2 find ur own peace of mind but u don't understand the tears that I've sheded sometimes only wishing I whas dead and I'm sorry I'm truly sorry for the way how I feel I'm so lost in my dreams don't know what is real ...This poetery is all I have when I feel deprived. I grab my pad and my pen and I feel revived. can't deside WTF am I hear for I'm doing what I love but my heart still sore....Still padle whit depression on a daily.......... I think I see my own reflection and I swear I fucking hate it .....Said i swear I hate got a big heart but my heart slowly breaking