#Just #Thinking #Of #You #I #Miss #You #So #Much #Wishing #You #Was #Here #Mom #NewEraSuperStars #Moderator_En #Rap_Ar_Team Reminiscing , #MajorPiece2 looking at your pictures. just thinking, different feelings, holidays without your presence. I do remember, cold days, no heat, so hard to sleep.nothing to eat. did our best, deep inside felt so weak. watching tv, how others broke bread with there families. every other week. I stole food and accessories. falling to my knees. speaking to god, forgive me. asking why it was like this. looking for help somewhere else. just regrets. only 9 seeing my mother crumble and cry. I just couldn't watch my siblings eyes. nightmares, had me staying up all night. wishing someone would've save us. not easy, believe me. childhood dreams, only meant 1 thing. get it how we lived. can't give up, being afflicted, with step dad whippings. mother screaming to stop. he kept hitting. didn't have no feelings.sucka punch her in her mouth. a kid thinking of way to leave this house. being honest, it was no way out! very abusive towards my mama. throwing things against the walls. black eyes and scars. devastated, I hated, coming up in these stages. memories of early ages. ripped pages. misrey took away our happinesses of places. still want blame her. what a woman supposed to do, no resource. close doors, Stevie Wonder, to this bullshit. all the headaches, couldn't even afford medicine. being rush to the hospital. body shut down, trying bring me be back. 5 minutes, seen bright sprits visits. leaving was a option, dehydrated, ivs in me. still fighting, woke up! everyone so sad. now I think of everything, we've been through. you've never giving up on me. now I know now,left a ho in my heart from there absences, only have pictures on my dresser. trying to calm down, but is so much pressure now. All I wanted to do is smile, tears running down my eyes. still I try! keep my head my up high. if I could hug her now. mean the world, take away some of my downs, I've been feeling for awhile. be strong! is a storm, going through it alone. looking for the sun to shine. rainy days, grey skies, how do I escape, need a break! move forward another day. putting flowers on moms graves.So much memories. between you and I. feeling incomplete. question God. he doesn't speak. I need peace. can't breathe. what's happening to me. I'll be ok, that's what they all say. some folks just don't understand grieve. living with missing major piece.