Pain

Sitting here realizing Our days are numbered marking the calendar crossing out the days fall winter spring summer listening to my heart beat like a drummer missing my little brother feeling sorry for my mother (worrying about my mother) Dealing with the pain dealing with the pain dealing with the pain the pain of love hate passion trust greed anger life Can't get any better emotions hidden behind the lies Never taking off the Disguise trying not to reveal crying eyes keeping a mask on keep it on don't take it off can't take it off the mask must never fall off becoming lost not knowing what I would do we only know what has to be done that Vs us having fun will the pain ever quit Never gonna make it So tired of faking it Why can't I just take this mask off and have The life I want The things I need Tried of begging please so many bruises inside of me if i keep it real will they start to heal dealing with the pain dealing with the pain dealing with the pain real or fake it all ends up the same gotta maintain for my family healing comes with a key unlocking these chains that are wrapped around me it will take time to break free until then ima be me dealing with the pain don't care if it drives me insane healing comes with a key unlocking these chains that are wrapped around me it will take time to break free