how would you feel

im damned if do dammed if i dont and sometimes it feels like my minds about to explode im so close to the edge it seems my destiny is to fail but i wont let them bring me down i gotta proceed and keep my head up and try not to let the hate around me get me fed up and end up on a life sentence cuz i let the led bust all because people wont leave me alone with all bulshit it used to take alot for me to act a full quick but nowadays my temper flares if you look at me the wrong way i ride solo cuz i dont know who i can trust i show nothing but love and in return i get a knife in my back and then when i react eveybody want to act like im losing control telling me i need to relax yall must be kidding me how would you feel if i did to you what you did to me but since its me then the situation is looked at differently my head turns with so many thoughts on my mind why this why that and what if i did this like that would it be the same situation every day is another day for me to deal with some shit im facing and its enough to drive anyone crazy maybe i should put the barrel to my head but then i let them win and i wont give them the satisfaction of seeing me dead plus the bible says that God won't forgive me for taking my own life its an unforgivable sin so i will take what comes my way till God says its time for me cuz in the end ill be free in heaven living in peace for eternity