Every day I’m dying to live Suicide has my head in a spin So much to unpack within I ask myself a question Where do I begin Woke up had an epiphany Seeing problems continue is the epitome Never failing consistency Short changing responsibility Blinding me with the ability To literally deliberately Pop up with hostility Like out of a horror movie Hold me point blank with that uzi That’s just 1 day to me Thought by smoking tree I would be free Since it’s what so called friends guarantee But more I proceed Acting naïve Praying for relief From this disease To the highest degree I’m no where near complete Asking for help is what I need To take heed From signs I read Before I agree To Take my life and bleed out Wanna wake up from this dream Exhausted to the point I wanna scream Even tho it’s in the past it’s history I’m still struggling Bcuz I never learned copping But instead I hide by joking About it all rather dealing With this unsettling Like feeling That’s teasing Like the bully That never grew up really I’m being sincere Not trying to get attention here Just trying to get my head clear Is what I’m trying to ensure What I can infer Is by speaking up and not wear The pain like a mask And to put down the flask Seek help and ask That should be the new task But often Hard to go up from the bottom Of this pit I know we have in common It’s obvious there is a problem That caused the fallen Turned to addiction Becoming an alcoholic Rather frolic With gin and tonic Than to be honest Your to toxic To listen to logic Until you see in the mirror your obnoxious eating and your conscious To the point you have no option Sound familiar with that corruption Repeated cycle of self destruction Repeated action imagine your loved ones exposed To the behold compose You impose Instead of the repose You shroud in your shadow Yet wonder why your alone