feels like im in a nightmare that i cant wake up from if my time on earth was wearing thin it wouldnt be a problem, to me or anyone, not even my own mum, i just want to be me but i cant without getting picked on, ive got ptsd from the way that people treated me in high school it wasnt cool it would make any bully druel, every day was pain cause everyone was a fucking tool, no safe place every corner i took was minimal, being fake seems to be the only way to stay mutual but one of these days it'll turn me into a criminal, become an inmate in a jail right in the middle of two crazy rapists, left and right of my cell, i dont want my life to be like that but what choice do i have when i dont have any talents, not to mention my head is unbalanced i dont want to be a dead beat slacker on the pention, i want to be a man and take a stand but what chance do i have because of what i just said, what do i know about taxes and rent, im 21 i dont want to live in her basement, i need to face it, i can either die on street with nothing to eat or find a replacement, we have to pay our payments so we can live another day thats why people go crazy and become murderers and rapists, because they hate the system and they just cant take it and these polititians wont listen and thats why we carry on and scream fuck the system, life sucks its hard, i dont have a silver spoon stuck up my ass, because one day mum will pass to the other side and i wont have my seatbelt fastened up, and the geaving starts and the only thing i have to lean on is her grave stone and my eyes will bleed from tearing up for too long,