(I'll make this sound better eventually) Life's too fucked, no I can't be sober  Tryna feel a vibe but my heart beat's over  Thoughts too complicate, my mind is all over Play me like a game, yea, you're the controller Wonder what life'll be when I am all older Will I still be on drugs and give the cold shoulder I'm tryna figure out if my friends will get closer But I really kinda doubt it, I have the luck of no clover  Bitch don't act like you actually care for me Just leave already, you fuck with my anxiety I know you don't understand, that's why I'm here writin  songs This shit from my brain, yk, 3am/midnight thoughts Don't you come to me,  I just tryna live my life, no bullshit, just peacefully And I know I'm smoking at this age rather illegally But it's the only thing, that could cope with my insanity Chorus: I don't know why I wanna die My life is fine but it hurts inside I don't know why I try  I just wanna- Oh my god, I can not see Darkness is my enemy You know someone's lurking bitch Someone finna kill a g As you know, I'm hella weak In a rut, I cannot sleep Riding around these streets at night man, I'll prolly get beat (chorus) one of these days imma die alone my hearts gonna grow to be made of stone idk where i should go no more i think its time that i find a new home mentally abusive sister she act like she own me, family think that they can control me, all I gotta say is fuck you, i dont need you guys I take my own path, shootin for the sky high so what if i smoke? i make my own damn choices at least gotta try, show em all my voices "speak up", "talk loud" im sorry I am quiet this anger inside of me kinda wants to start a riot im sick of all this bullshit that I shouldn't have to deal with drag me in through the pain, thats just all im feelin homies come to me when they talkin bout suicide god, all im askin is why choose me to save their life? why choose me to save their life? im no one special i jus wanna die too but i won't I'll stay for them yea I'll only stay for them