1984 I used to think I’m in heaven when I was younger Didn’t know ill grow and feel down and under I thought and my thought is a blunder All I hear now is the scary thunder Although its not raining but I’m drowning in my head A thought pattern that might find me dead No one knows how it feels when reality and fiction interferes That being said I sometimes get scared to get out of bed I don’t know when the rats would eat my face Same nightmare same time but different pace Will god ever look into my case Will I ever be saved or will I live in disgrace Big brother hates me I thought as an older brother he would support me I thought he would even hug me not destroy me For everything is now flipped upside down Truth turn to lies Love turns to hate Peace turns to war And we are like rats in a maze Searching for food Is it any good To love a person, Julia I wish I could Or would it end in misery Me in 101, me being history How many before me sat in that chair I remember Julia your dark coloured hair Im sorry my fear took over I feel drunk although im sober Is it my fear taking over? Or is it the end Is it really Winston, or shall I just pretend Room 101 is not a jail I grew up and realised it is hell.