ive been living my life as a dog but i keep it undercover my life is fucked up my uncle just died and family is fighting no matter what good i do they will never like me they dispite me its funny how my own bro is my enemy he just wanna fight me i got deep pain its coming heavily my heart aint beating like it should i feel tramatize in my own household i guess im misunderstood i just wanna leave im trapped in my own conscience everything i do i got to be cautious i never wanna come back i wanna show my hood whos the boss 7th loss in the family my uncle died and im missing him i aint gonna lie but i dissed him i got too much pain i cant take it no more smoking alot so my heart failing me my biggest goal is too see my granny i cant ask for a worsie family i just wanna leave death upon me is my only peace my life is a disgrace i wanna be in a better place ii cant take it no more i got to much pain i cant deal with i can be how angry at my bros but i still love them i just wanna have a day with peace ive been asking the lord why when i do something good the bad shit follow down on me ive been waking up feeling cursed no matter what good i do ill be considered the worst i dont smoke weed no more now i feel im gonna be insane my brain is doing overtime