its a mess..yeah i wanna cry but ima be strong for my momma's sake ill help her she can cry i'll lend my shoulder cause she carried me for 9months i'm eternally grateful for that now i'ma become famous so that i can give her anything she wants and desire momma i love you sorry if i hurt you this song is for you im going through hell but i wont show my tears 2you i gotta be strong for you sorry again momma but i'm going through hell your tears make me feel as if im in hell i try 2 comfort you but it doesnt help yeah i grew up with a father he disappeared in grade 1 im in grade 9 i promise youll have the best you u want ima be the son you never had ima give you the sweetest grandchildren rather than a burden ima show you flames you'll burn from being wealthy you can drink you can be a mess number 1 you'll always be my number 1 number 2 i love you number 3 i'll build you a sea now the question is do you love me i'm not questioning your love for me but sometimes i just feel like this is a fake world where everyone gangs up on me because its only me that gets hurt in situation but if this is a fake world please tell so that i can know and kill myself cause i suffer 2 much but i feel i can get through it change of mind fuck this fake world ima make it real by becoming the second best rapper just beneath my star eminem who motivates me and burns the suffer in me breaks me from chains and pains he is the medicine i need so mom cry all you like im your painkiller and eminem is mine so we both will be healthy at the end of the day so mom just know that i love you very much even though im part of the pain that makes you suffer i dont want to make you cry but just know this song comes from my heart i love you mom