Lisa Maxwell

1 year ago

I wish you didn't feel like this.....if only I could take away the pain...I'd do anything to undo the nightmares ..trust your not the only one to have suffered. ..Let me try to mend what's been lost...only if you'd give it some thought.I llay awake most night's thinking about change and what I'd give just to see your face... please don't ever undue fate that would cost more then what was taken... words could never undue what I've done I know that the devil won.

The Void

3 years ago

I'm lost in the deep end. I can't understand my feelings. You said you loved me, and I believed it. Now you're off with another guy. I cant understand it, my mind wont comprehend it. your messing with me right?? is that what I truly have to believe?? Why can't I find in myself able to leave you. even if you killed me and said it was ok, I would believe you till this day. Im so lost, it breaking, trying to take medication and wait for death to take me. I remember waking up, them got on call and found out you wasn't alone. You said that was your brother, so i let it go. Now I am stranded here all alone. No one else to call my own. My friends told me and I pushed it away, I said I didnt believe it until I seen it. Now I seen it, caught you cheating. I remember laying on my bed and asking myself "Why the fuck, did I ever do for this treatment" honestly I'm upset, how was I so blind, from this girl who I thought was legit? I sat and wondered "Would this be it?" Just take one shot to my head or a lot of medicine, then say it was to cope with it? honestly it made me thinking, how the fuck was I able to take advantage of, now I bearly believe in this thing called love. it's like everytine I figured something out, you come in and make me rethink life.