"Not What It Seems" ~I.Z. What if I put a bullet in my brain right now how insane is a question like that I ain't suicidal at all but I'm thinkin what if I died right now how much it'd affect my little girl my little world that imma sing for yea she's what's keepin me here makin me real makin me feel things I ain't ever felt. Like yea my little Mila imma make it big for you so that Daddy can give you life he wants to give you given the situation as it was dealt one day I'll explain this to you and you will feel the hell I was in from your mother torturing me from within. Mila I'm so glad I'm still alive and I'm so glad it was another failed suicide an I'm here for you now until tha end and feel what I feel within. Yea my pain was enough to make me insane enough to go an do what my mother did. I ain't a quitter im a bull and I ain't gonna be fooled into thinkin I ain't here for you. If I gave up and gave in like Alice Christi did in 97 on me then where in 20 years where would you be. And that's the type of things that scared me into stayin in this cold dark world we live in. I ain't ever gonna give in. And I may be with other women but it's so I could stay alive and feel alright cause I ain't gonna be with a woman who thinks it's ok to beat me. One day you'll understand. Now baby move yo feet to the timeless beats that yo daddy made for you yea only you. You are livin proof that love is what exists. God himself wrote this when he created all of us. Know I'm convicted thinkin in tryin to teach you a lesson and explain my success an it's the succession of me that made me realize I was better off with a miserable life with someone who wouldn't let me be me.