I sit up alone every night trying to fight my feelings But It doesn't work cause when it was over I turned over and ignored the piece of my heart that was missing and now it is gone cause I did not listen I was lost in a reality where all I felt was love thought it was a plan from up above like a dove was sent with a message that I didn't receive clearly cause I read nothing about the part where I would be sitting up every night in pain with only her in my thoughts wish I could put these feelings in a box a burn them along with all the memories but I just can't forget her the only one I didn't write a letter Instead I sent a text and was destroyed by what happened next like a dagger to my chest but I continue to progress to prove to her that I could be better than the rest to prove she was the best And eventually it was proven but forward was not the direction that we were moving we where holding steady till it became to heavy she felt like I was pushing and I felt like she was pulling away and then it fell apart to quickly I was lost in a cloud of my thoughts and didn't realize it dropped a relationship I wish I would've held on to We where only friends who wanted to be something more then we lost grip and It shattered on the floor now we don't talk anymore and I keep falling to the floor cause I don't want to do this anymore she was one I adored talking to her I was never bourd it was reality that I ignored I miss the glistening of her eyes it would make me blind cuz her beauty would shine bright I hated telling her good night and goodbye and I don't want to lie every time I cried a little bit more Puddle stained the floor locked behind my door destroying myself from the core I can't take it no more cuz what did I do to deserve this without her my life feels worthless wish I could just purchase a new heart and press restart just pack up my feelings And send them on a flight because I don't want to keep up this fight I feel so weak thinking of her everyday of the week I play her favorite song over and over it's the sound track of my sadness the soundtrack of madness now I feel at my worst all I can do is curse FUCK!!!!!!