I've made mistakes in my life and their cutting me deeper than a knife I've run out of tears to cry I know one day I'll just roll over and die And I'm no longer asking why cuz what's the point Fuck it roll another joint it's the only way I stay alive when I stay high Do you realize the pain I've been victimized to I told her I love you and she said it to and those are words I can not take back it's like another slap in a fight that I'm loosing tonight I no longer can see the day light all I see is the gray haze and I'm stuck in this rain these feelings are fucking with my brain and it's driving me insane I await happiness and progress but I can not process this pain illuminating in my brain and I said it was driving me insane but I've already been driven I've already reached my destination of desperation with a new creation and the previous cremation of my feelings it's like a card game new set is being dealt like I'm supposed to just erase the past feelings that I felt Like my feelings are supposed to just change but to me that's hella deranged and now I don't feel the same cuz I'm no longer happy with a smile haven't seen that part of me in a while the part of me that was actually happy my current life is crappy these days I have to get crafty with all these demons coming after me all I hear is yelling all I feel is pain riding on the midnight train lost in my feelings and now I'm ready to just go ready for the big show pay the reaper with coins cause I'm getting annoyed stuck trying to fill this void with plaster and shit looking back and shit I don't give a shit there's no changing my mind cause I'm no longer blind to reality but I'm damned to insanity So fuck you and the rest of humanity were where you all when I needed clarification on sanity