Jen fuck it i got some shit i want to say you probably don't want to hear it right now but hey its only because I have so much love for you . so if i may this is not another lecture telling you how you have to quit. I understand your pain its fucking legit i just hope you can find a way to let go of some of it I wish I could make it easy for you but I'm sorry that won't happen no matter what I do the only thing I know for sure is true the road back is going to be long and hard as hell but it'll be worth it i swear just know you Don't have to do it alone i wont be far away if ya need any help hit my phone all you have to do is decide you want it for yourself and you can no longer be owned you gotta give it all you got before your time is up so you can no longer postpone baby girl I know you're hurting I know you've been down a tough road that's for certain but i also know you're a good ass person please believe me when I tell you your more than its servant and your big beautiful heart is near perfect and it has so much purpose i know you have the courage to find it and i know your nervous but listen my heart is bursting truly hurting and searching for the right wording i know you can do this you just gotta put the work in because i know your Worth it and to me girl you'll always be perfect. come on girl what's it going to take for you to see its time to set yourself free i know you got it in you i guaranfuckintee I really hope with all my heart you figure it out and choose to live cuz i see how amazing you really are and how much you have to live for, and just how rare a person like you is in this world. I can't handle not having you in my life. but i won't sit by and watch you given up in front of my eyes you gotta rise it breaks my heart to know I can't help you. so i just cry I'd Give anything to take all your pain so you could live a happy life again ahhhhh shit girl I'm sorry I'm getting all emotional but you know how i get i cant help it its just the way i am hey jen i just want you to know ill always be your number one fan if you need me just reach out your hand and i promise you together we will stand come on lets go I Kno you think its all over and you don't deserve it but please believe me when I tell you better days are coming fo sho you just gotta let the pain go