couple weeks ago contemplated suicide sat up in the bathroom with that knife to my wrist/getting ready to say good bye/than I look up at the sky/as I began to cry/I ask myself why o why/please God I feel like I wanna die/life seems so dark and cold /suicide is not a option nigga like me will never fold/time to change my life im getting old/in an out the penatentry check that black and white I've never told/in the streets all my life/shot a nigga when I was young could i have did the rest of my life/went to prison gang banging smuggling dope/get money on my own /suboxin was my only hope/please God help me cope/please God show me the way the truth and the life/feel so lonely/lost at times/on the yard dropin ryems/not a life I want to live/ finally paroled Aug 25 back at the crib/wasn't long the streets sucked me in/like a addic /all in rite back at it/seen tabbie for the first time told myself she so sexy I gotta have it/b