sometimes i wanna tear myself apart rewrite myself my past, then move to the future i don't know the point of it is that i hate my present you go tell tell em that life is hard they look u and laugh at you wait I've been in love several times but none of em works out I've got alot demons to play with yeah am seventeen but i feel like am 80 maybe 90 i guess i don't know but I've got alot on my mind mom left me when i was way to young i was not even a year old i guess but i don't hate her for that i just wanna meet her with my dad watch them cuddle, And laugh with them well I guess that was just a dream the doctor said i had sickle cell anemia i know that wasn't good from the look on my father's face I've been a fighter since birth am gonna win or die tryin although i don't wanna go there I've been there before ain't scared no more cause I've been there before i just don't know how it feels is it dark and creepy? or those it feel like a dream i don't know but everyone is gonna die just be aware of it ya'all looking bored let me change the sub remember Juice wrld he talked about his pains I'm sorry you're dead bro cause i feel your pains now maybe mine is worst cause i wake up every morning turning to see depressions laying with me then my anxiety pops up wait who is that on the door? its trauma waiting for me yeah they would never understand me this is me i can't be you so be you and do you proud am just gonna be me and am gonna be real till i die this is my world and these are my words