aye gotta get this off my mind its craige south yeah the thoughts bother me never get to meet my son or daughter cause of you i hate fathers day so i kneel at the alters and pray God please take care of my baby i think about em daily why'd she have a miscarriage it left my life a wreckage you couldnt make it out your mother the pain and thoughts just smother me i dont know how i go on feels like im misery's pawn to my little fawn or buck the memories are stuck i think about you all the time so im sending this message in a rhyme living with the pain how do i stay sane i send you all my love but i know your above your in good hands i know that yeah i know that when i see you ill be the happiest man i know that your watching so ima be the best i can hate i never got to hold you in my arms wouldve done anything to keep you out harms way pain aint justified by the words i say your mother and me split but that dont mean i would've quit being your dad it hurts woulda gave you everything but i cant so ima give you these words took you under my wing to deal with it i use to use the herbs but i done turned to drinking i know your not proud i wonder what your thinking i just cant get rid of this dark cloud it follows me anywhere i go im not at the end of my rope but i keep falling further id do anything to have you even murder i send you all my love yeah i know your above your im good hands i know that when i see you ill he the happiest man i know that your watching so ima be the best i can be i know that yeah i know that id give my own life if it meant you could live was there a way i could revive you worst pains being deprived of you do you agree with my lifestyle probably not but ill know after while trynna be good so i can see you in heaven am i leaving a bad impression i hope not id rather rot by now you would almost be two when she was pregnant i never knew until you were gone hope some pain leaves by writing this song but it probably wont so this is just for you i send you all my love yeah i know your above when i see you ill be the happiest man i know that but your in good hands i know that yeah i know that i want you to know that i love you and i always will