isolation i GOTTA write DOWN all my thoughts before they are to FADED NOW that im staying ISOLATED my TRUTH is ALWAYS the words i STATED and all my haters HATE IT now im TRYING to get out of this life that got me living DEGRADED TODAY has been long AWAITED AND I'm feeling MOTIVATED I NEVER made it to WHERE i WANTED to be in this LIFE it got WORSE when i was FUCKIN with ICE. ive been a FAILURE at EVERYTHING ive TRIED ATLEAST in MY EYES but ive ALWAYS been an honest GUY i REALLY just HATED telling LIES NOW Im about to WIN this FIGHT My PLAN changed OVERNIGHT I TRY to live RIGHT But I needed HELP And LOVE for me is SO rarely FELT Feels like my FINAL hand has been DELT ive always been DEPRESSED full OF FEAR and PARALYZING ANXIETY now I gotta RISE moving on finally and ill do it QUIETLY cuz i KNOW this time im GETTING my SOBRIETY cuZ im SICK of doing ICE i REALLY just NEEDED some good ADVICE so i could MOVE on with my LIFE and again LOOK my kids in their EYES before i GET to the AFTERLIFE I've ALREADY paid the worst PRICE by LOSING my kids TWICE because of me NAH it was BOTH my ex WIVES and HOW they LIED but nice TRY when I THINK about what they DID i ALWAYS CRY to BE able to SEE my kids again wouldn't just be NICE it would be PARADISE looking back at so many failed attempt's Maybe it's TIME to accept it moving on never FORGET. cuz i PAID my DEBT for ANYTHING i EVER done WRONG SO i need to STOP living WITH all this REGRET CUZ i aint DONE livin YET. I aint DONE livin YET yeah I aint DONE livin YET. Its BEEN so long since I've SEEN all you GUYS I see EVERYONE of your SMILES EVERYTIME I close my EYES thinking about OUR LAST GOOD-BYE. there were SO many LIES THEY were Unwilling to COMPROMISE And will never REALIZE they are the ONES that need APOLOGISE For WEARING the DISGUISED That CAUSED my Demise but its TIME to OPEN my EYES and BEGIN my RISE NOW that im FAR more WISE im NO longer SEARCHING for the HOW'S N WHY'S so many tears have been wiped even though i tried to do everything right i was beaten down now i gotta move on like a warrior of light holding all the pain that's now my strength for the next fight I GOTTA write down all my THOUGHTS before they are to FADES now that im STAYING ISOLATED my TRUTH has always been the words STATED and All my haters HATE IT im TRYING to get out OF a life that GOT me living DEGRADED TODAY has been long AWAITED and I'm feeling MOTIVATED TODAY has been long AWAITED and I'm feeling MOTIVATED I GOTTA write down all my THOUGHTS before they are to FADES now that im STAYING ISOLATED my TRUTH has always been the words i STATED All my haters HATE IT im TRYING to get out OF a life that GOT me living DEGRADED TODAY has been long AWAITED and I'm feeling MOTIVATED TODAY has been long AWAITED and I'm feeling MOTIVATED