well here I am alone in my car just trying to think trying not to take any aggravation or pain inside when I go take when I pulled up in the driveway then I set in my car for a minute just to s*** a beater too just to go ahead and lay your line to let you know I'm true let you know what I do and how I do it so I'm not out here trying to disrespect nobody yo but I don't want to battle I don't want to diss nobody but if you want to do it then we can do it it's whatever but I want to take back take back to the time to the time that I was walking with my mom down a long dark path that was getting closer and closer to a white light at the end of the tunnel and I think that was me getting closer and closer to heaven's Gates then my mama looked at me and said baby just go back go back please man I ain't going to lie that s*** totally f***** me up cuz I woke up and I was 15 days in a coma for 8 days into this s*** and then I woke up and f****** had a tube down my throat three tubes in one of my lungs and two in the other and a metal bar hanging on the outside of the right side of my right leg because my femur was broke man I don't know how I walked away that day but that's the day my life change that's the day that I got insurance because it took all the pain away and it's affected my life today please mama just be with me please be with me please let me talk to you whenever I feel the need cuz I got so much tension and anger built up so much stress and depression I'm so thrown off I don't know I feel like I'm just but just bout and bound to blow my brains out but I feel like I'm stronger than that I owe it to you to f****** do what I can do as a man that you left when he was only 12 years old yet you had already talked me everything that I needed to know to be a man see so I never had my daddy man that Daddy don't mean nothing to me the daddy straight a b**** because if you know some s*** and if you thought you had a kid what would you do to get in touch with him and find out for sure what was really up on why you left all of a sudden and just fled the scene like nothing but I'm here to tell you Mama then I love you with all of my heart and you're not forgotten and I know that you're with me you're the reason that I have the premonitions I do I see the visions of things I feel through when it's me connected to God it's because you are in me and that's what part of me is isolated up there is even though I didn't get my wings and I fell back here you're still the best part of me because you will still looking out for me till this day and I love you forever you'll never be forgotten I love you