Yeah, some things got me messed up. I can’t push forward in my life. Some scenarios make me want to take a knife till I’m begging for life. Drugs at night so I can cope with all the fights that we’ve been having all the time. I feel like I need a therapist, but multiplied. I’m lost inside. I need to open up more to search for the things I was born for. But I just feel like I’m talentless, I’ve tried to balance all of this for my future kids. I’m not the best with it. I have to admit I’ve done some crazy things, and I still don’t get it. Why’d she leave me? Maybe I was greedy for money and not loving. I’m in a mid-life crisis, at least that’s something. I’m not in poverty, but being lonely is worse than anything! I’m angry, I’m shaking, I’m depressed, my life is a mess. That’s how God made me.