#LTEAMR #LTP #rapfame #new wait what's is wrong now dont tell me that u mad at me again ur mom right tell me Is she still trying so hard to get us into an argument she blames me i blame her for the way we treat each other many days i live with ur mom yes the one I felt something special for her and only because she brought the most AMAZINGLY beautiful baby now in this 2021 that grown woman young woman but you know that to me u my baby girl since the first day u came into this life u came to this world this wicked crazy life we all have to be strong and never give up look ann I haven't I will never forget who u is to me and who I'm to u and I know I'm not perfect thanks to ur moms games and my wicked ways and I know u know I'm sure ur mother told you about me she hated me years back as I'm doing this trk Is clearly in my head she yes her yes ur mom still hates me and I know how cold ur mom could be killed my motivation put down many times saying I was no good if all I ever did and god is my witness and he seen the mess I was in i lost you that most crazy sad story of my life a simple chapter closing that book i closed it I'm so sorry i closed the book completely lately i being thinking that i was more like her so cold i shouldn't never left your side in despite of all my mistakes and yes please dont remind me again and again how I couldn't make it to ur birthdays not there ur father didnt even show up to help and hold ur hand so tightly making ur so secured and trusted this simple man holding ur hand on cutting your birthday cakes I'm not flake trust me I'm no fake I had to much on my plate many time to your sports game I was late dont judge me love this man dont ever tell him that u hate and no love for him is left or was never there because that day if it comes and u say it I would walk away heart broken desperately driving away swerving in and out of my lane anxiety creeping in now depression I'm aware of how deep the cut is and depression deception would only trigger this thing in my head and fast go faster finding my way to the closest place more like a bridge where the fall is where the separation from life and death with my deception and this depression I'm jumping of that bridge ending this pain that is so deep that I rather be away from life itself close my eyes and sleep and never wake up. hope them words I will never here them once again as a man I took it the first time and it was because u was young a baby of mine now that u all grown the second time I will take it seriously and just give up and end my life so quickly... no I'm not a coward is just that at the pace and to end this race rather be gone from this life then living this life waking up every day looking at the mirror and looking on my own face dont chu worry I promise u I will not leave a trace my deception my depression first place I will try and hope I succeed and end this test of life jumping of deception pass and end this pain for once and for all .... my love for u will never die it will for ever last same exact way as the first day u opened up your eyes ..... real true love the love from the father to her own daughter I want us to once again be together let ur mom know stop making my life harder and harder all I want in my life before I die for us to be together cant live this way any longer I need u by mi side remember this and u know it I'm always right tell your mom to take it easy to relax to forget the past is now 20 years later and she still stuck on what I did if I ever was away from u I was not trying to stay away every day I felt like away from ur mother was the best decision I ever made with this decision came so much pain and I knew it u was not the reason I left I sacrifice my happiness with my only daughter living with ur mother was like trying to climb a mountain scared of making a mistake afraid of taking a wrong move I'm hoping u and i again be close together two of us happy again once more be happy father and daughter together together