I can't lie I really sucks knowing it could be over at any minute Many get it but others don't understand the amount of digits That I steady accumulate why do I feel so ashamed Probably because I know I was wrong now I struggle to hide the pain Fuck it Im afraid of going back without a rider My time is up, i fucked my self again, feelin the fire Feel the desire to be everything that I can But thats impossible now cuz I wound up back in the pen Gotta be the dumest mother fucker I know Burning every bridge I cross just so im not followed home Trying not to notice that im all alone Phone never rings less its the wrong number or somebody wanting some blow Okay but Be that as it may I stay away from busy streets Keep myself outta drama and keep creating heat All I can do to keep from myself from finaly losing my mind From reminiscing on times with my friends that have died -fine I guess ill keep trying but what the purpose Start building my life get astablished and steadily working Just to have it randomly taken from you right after you make the purchase Than do it all over again thats insane and it isn't worth it 1. Now I'm being judged where the fuck they do that shit at 2. Government official cuasing hypocritical get back 3. How is it wrong for me to kill somebody in defense 4. But because I killed that guy you try and sentence me to death 5. Got me like oh lord, cut the phone cord 6. I been sippin on Henny Bet he ain't even on board 7. I've been so torn up since we got f***** up 8. My homeboy got popped i stopped and got stuck 9. So happy to get away it'd be nice to have the truck 10. Either way I was happy at least