Stuck In My Head - GnarBars #SIMH #BrainStuck #StuckInMyHead #Immortals @moderator_en If any feeling like you can't get away hit the Suicide Hotline 800-273-8255 hurtful thoughts stuck inside my head sometimes its feels like I'm already dead dont know if i can go through it by myself but dont trust myself to go and ask for help theres a devil in my head and every time i go to bed remindin me of faliure every stupid thing i said incessant little bastard tangled mind up like a dread try to slow it down but its hungers always fed up with every sentence between lines never read reminding me im wrong when i knew the flag was red im just tryin to live my life i dont need this fuckin shit but this anxious bulb inside is always fully lit powered by my conscious stuck inside its self tried to keep in order but its fuckin with my health so i take another drink puff on another smoke wish i could break out but my lifes a fuckin joke they say live for the experience its always hard at first then critique on every step before you take the first overthinking every task expecting just the worst feeling your existence is nothing but a curse so i keep it to myself afraid to speak or reach out this darkness overhead growin bigger blackened cloud mind triyin to keep up but its blank newly plowed ready to start fresh but seeds dont grow in a drought sometimes the brain is jammed sometimes the brain is trouble but it's stuck in quicksand and then the troubles doubled these chains on my back getting out of bed feels tortured depression gettin heavy too weighted to move forward they say the pasts behind you but im walkin side by side with every choice I've made so the feelings never die tryin hard to confront them but every night I've cried over and over getting better is a lie i don't know how to break out when every days' a struggle from a prison i created while life is a hustle bussle walking on razors edge keeping balance with no muscle gettin cut with every step the bleedin gettin puddled they say suicide's a choice that's selfish in every way but dont think in the minds of heads that think it every day no other way to explain distress felt full of shame cant ever just be normal when your thoughts arent fuckin sane its hard to express that im not killin myself but the thought is consistent with lack of mental health i always find a way to love my current life but it just keeps gettin tough confidence brittle as ice hurtful thoughts stuck inside my head sometimes its feels like I'm already dead dont know if i can go and do it by myself but dont trust myself to go and ask for help