It’s hard for me to smile when I’m starin in motha fucken eyes of a demon/ I’ve really lived my life like a heathen/ thereshit goin on inside of my head/ that there really is no start to the healing/ everyday I be fightin these feelings / these feelings that just might kill me/ so I pop me pill just to deal with the thought that the devil might reveal that I’m not made of steel/ if u understand the way that I feel / I ask u lord if really ur real please come and take the wheel /if u don’t I’ll have no appeal to the evil thats coming to seal the deal/ this here might be my last meal so I Crack the seal and Pour it up ur gonna peal me from the bottom this cup I won’t stop til I’m good and numb/ I know this choice might be dumb I can’t stand strong I might be done/ I use to be told that I was the one but this life I’m livin is no fun I can’t wait til it’s over and done there is only on bullet up in this gun/ I squeeze the trigger/ it’s fuckin done