here i am nothing more nothin less than a man.. tryna figure out which thought to listen too or which position that i shud pursue considering my sub conscious point of veiw but what about my consc ious thoughts. FUUUCK...Sometimes I just feel so lost tryna stay camouflaged from the disappointment that I caused shits got me pissedoff got my dicksoft where the fuck is my pillbox always gotta think I already lost before the kickoff whats got me thinkin where is God and the only thing that killz anxiety is a nod but thats not what I was taught these drugs got me so lost needa filter out the bullshit like exshaust let me pause to remind myself that I haven't lost it ain't gonna be easy I don't needa bitch to needme its ok to be alone and start from the beginning where im not so familiar with sinning easier said than done what about my past don't even know my son my niece is gone most the people im around don't know what I've been through or where I come from feelin like I need a gun emotions numb look what I've become all I ever do is run smoking like I gotta extra lung needa get outta my own way cause this pressure weighs a ton I gotta change or end up dead or in prison so pay attention to my vision heart beatin like a kickdrum I suggest you pay attention or atleast act like you no how to listen here's my vision it starts with wisdom and God thats the rhythm of my new system im not a victim of my past existence gonna be the best josh I can be fuck your negativity and depressed thoughts walking through the city like a lost thought im tryna beat the odds and make it to the tippy top like a astronaut and get a good job from my pops but it starts with stop fuckin off till I reach the opposite of lost