yeah f*** the reality I don't want to fly I don't want to die anymore just living is hard right now with a Corona and everything is just hard I guess I could just go away but then that would never be best for anybody wish I could keep this baby I would do it on myself I would do anything to do it but I can because of my girl she don't think you're ready if you don't think I already either I wish I really had a chance wish I really had a wish wish I really really could find that wishing well and put the quarter in there then I could just wish upon a time wish you upon a Time the skies glow bright with them Stars up lit up I don't really get it I don't really understand why I be feeling so down in the dump which I really had a chance wish I had an opinion. I guess I just guess nobody really cares anymore because I feel like I should just die maybe everybody would be glad maybe everybody will be happy maybe I will just be better off going to heaven or hell maybe I will be better off and after life maybe would be better than here on this Earth living day by day not being noticed I wish shooting star would fly across the globe then I'd be like oh my make a wish make it come true got to do that s*** right away when it comes when it goes when I do it it'll be the most glorious day of my life the day that my baby girl is born I will be the happiest man on the earth if I could keep her if I could hold her in my arms so many times be there when her heart gets broken for the first time now I guess I don't really get it in my life time I don't really got it I don't really know what I be doing here on this Earth I don't even know if I have a purpose but now I know I suspect my purpose is here for her for her my baby my girlfriend soon to be wife I guess people you wanted a song now you got it this song I put my life into I put my soul into I've been waiting to write something like this my whole entire life it's just been hard to focus with everything going on in my life I hope I never f****** again I hope I never got to make that decision again choosing over another person choosing to keep a baby your loser lose it I am a loser I am just so down at them always depressed I am always sad always feeling something always feeling guilty always paranoid that is something about to happen never want to do like that first issues in my brain never want to do that again never want to make that heart disease next time she gets pregnant next time I'll make you keep this baby a maker because I don't really want to go through this I don't want to do it I wish I would have just pulled out of work kind of more never even f***** or wish I would have just cuddled all night talked about the good times talk about all that s*** that going down yeah this is my life story now hope you take it in hope you never make my mistakes to all the people that listen to this track peace out hope you have a better life don't fall for depression's tricks