{Verse1} It been a week and I'm still affected by it I still don't know what to do anymore I'm at the breaking point of why I still bother in life Why bother to believe in the happy life Fuck you man, your job was to make this world good but played so dirty all because you blamed it on Adam and Eve Because of you, I lost this girl who was so damn special to me Lately I've been thinking, why did I even believed in you at first but now it got so twisted around, Huh, Pity God Having a god is like having a false positivity in life Nothing is positive if you keep taking the ones that i truly care about Driving out in the middle of the night, wondering why you taken so many ppl in my life and yet not mine, Is it because I've done a lot of bad things in my past that made me a better man today? Yet I'm still grinding to find the way to the day, grinding to survive, still grinding when I'm deadass tired People always tell me, it'll be okay but yet you still don't understand the pain that kills me inside, so I'm supposed to go thru out my life acting like everything is okay when it always have been Me, Myself & I? Where's the people who truly cares about me? Where's the people who got my back 24/7? Nah man, i gave up in life long time ago, yet still surviving just to stay alive, this song is only gonna have one long verse because I'm so sick and tired and pissed off with this world, I'm affected by this pain, nothing but Ashtray and Heartbreaks, nobody seems to notice in my eyes that I'm screaming for help, screaming inside with so many tears inside, but all you ever do is come up to me then walk away Everyday i still question about god and life and how things really work in life but in the end I'm still alive surviving when i was supposed to be dead long time ago, gotta stay positive no matter what right? Every single goddamn day, I wish i could take back that day and tell her not to leave, every day i still look at the pictures of her, still saying that I love you and I miss you, you're always going to be on mind until the day i die, I will see you again love, like i said pity god, nothing but a false belief