I never knew how i was destined to live. My mama was there but my pops who i miss. I wanna grab the bottle reminisce pop some pills. I never felt loved no ones proud for my skills. But what if i dont wake up how would mama feel. And what about my kids when will be their next meal. Will my wife move on and leave me in the past. And before you take me God i wanna ask. Will you firgive me and accept me in heaven. Will my mom be alright does my bro learns his lesson. Will he ever be freed from being locked in a cell. And if i go to heaven will i still have a spell. Do i get to see my grandma again please tell me yes. And i also have a cousin up there lets take a guess. And can i take some of the pictures with me so i wont forget. yeah i took my whole life for granted like its a bet. Mama mia perdon por aver cambiado tarde. Pero siempre dolio que no conoci a un padre. Un abrazo no tuve ni un jugete de el. Se lo juro que nunca entendi este mundo. cruel. Y a mi nena preciosa siempre hablele de mi. Y le encargo a mi niño todo por ellos di. Y a mi esposa hermosa te deseo lo mejor. Cada vez que tomaba se iva un poco de dolor. and what if i dont wake up where would i go next. when i most needed someone i didnt get a text.