intro: trap in the paranoid I just want to run away it's a no way out may be it's a circle way I don't want no toxic life I be throwing up but they gona come and get me till I going up livung so messed it got me blurry I can't see no point sober got me real hard ya I m missing the joint I don't want to but lately my mental on stun I don't get it when they be doing it for fun the more i tryna quick the more it get me got me thinking gotta figure what will I be lost in this lifestyle wats wrong with me but this toxic habits just don't wanna leave me now do they even want me do they even believe me don't u quit on me it's a long journey business is business u know it's dirty chrs: hold on show just started why u gotta leave if I am no more if m gone would you grieve been thru alot what more do I need came from nothing I know m greed I know m greed sorry that's my deed u know how it go ya its from ma heart ya its deep now I dont want to change no more. even If I want to I don't know who I do it for I love it when I am drunk and i am stabe only when m high I regret I quick cos that was the only time when I sigh I don't remember the last time I feel alive so tired give me a break. I just need a long drive so many back back stepped I don't know wat to believe lost many battles in life no more I grief. so many option now but trying to be a perfect figure and all those sleepless night. got my vision bigger I don't want no nothing but grace and your blessing I failed you so many times coz I was in a race and I was stressing now do u even want me do u even trust me don't u quit on me it's a long journey business is business u know it's dirty