fuck life

I want be happy in my life, like I got good wife Not killing with the knife and end my life And now im thingking if im good or become bad dude and killing all people in the hood My sadness is my hapiness yeah Cause can comfort in the night , off the light Cant see but slight, so worst worst to last word to end the world , like I pray in the lord To be good, but here I am, I always do bad fuck dude , im so tired always being good , nigga trippin every night and not slippin nor eatin Feeling so pain, walking in the rain no one callin Or give me umbrella in the middle of the rain