barely breathin chest compressions No pulse this 4 real never heal broken hearted Can't deal, i kneel at her side & i wont let go continue to breath life but...... she fading slow cops n me bout to fight overdose they walk away call it quits wit tears in her eyes and blood in her nose she reaches for the sky i dive back the first sign of life she sufferin eyes bulged body not stiff they chokin me now im goin out you finally breathin before i go bout to loose conscience i reversed the choke and didnt even know my lips will never heal RIP my sweet angel may God Rest Your Soul mine is forever fractured pain cuts deep nobody to hold me im loosing weight like its part of my routine family makes assumootions but they never suffered this much few can relate or understand their is this ONE, when she died of travesty i feel her ever so close even Ghost the strongest woman ive ever met perfect soul, never forget believing hold her close beat in my chest I'll never let her Go, What used to be A smile on my face Reminise seein yo face all alone feelin outta place like im here goin nowhere damage may be done We all got pain every breath i take i smother cut deep doin my best to recover every day choosin seclusion continue to pray keepin the faith continuely loosin my place no comfort or peace sleep my life away, Pray for comfort in my home God will u make my heart whole livid living conditions growing old Im tired of the Trouble i keep feelin all alone; No one to call, made plenty mistakes, how many hits can i take till i break wide open im a pinyatta a dailey routine, takin hits Nud your head if you know what i mean livid livin conditions, prisoner in my own mind secluded to this hard time doin to much seperate pain, find no peace, looking for the heavens but all i ever see is the rain standing bedside You struggled to stay alive You saw me standing their begging you 2 fight you started to cry Knowing it hurt me deep inside You struggled to look at me You struggled to hold my hand At some point I knew this was the end. I'm dying, I'm living, I'm sinning, I'm Trouble breaking every fuckin limit When I reach the mark will all be forgivin, will all the hate diminish I'm tired of excuses, tired of losses tired of fake ready for some real, needin time with my children to heal back on the grind lookin 4 work gotta pay the bills no support sympathy wont provide em meals I'm trying hard to win Life call me out on my bs, I work hard, never quit tryin to get back to myself my children give me will give me reason providing the light heart beat together we fight my sunshine after a dark night Gods promise everything will be alright. I’m going to learn I’m going to burn I’m going to rise I’m going to ride I’m going to yearn I’m going to love Abandon tomorrow Be thankful for today HELP ME I CANT BREATH" Pressure is pushing me down I try to speak alone cut deep That tear begins to fall, my heart beat flutters n stalls, trapped inside of my own mental walls, beating my demons, stronger I grow as I sharpen these claws, I've gotten past my flaws and fears, So many years broken inside everything is gone Including my pride Push past no return I contemplate suicide Every single second im alive Do i live with this pain Do i leave it all behind Do i pretend it gonna be okay My final thoughts qqqQq My pain im looking at my son Thinkin to myself What have i become