am struggling with how to breathe properly so I can live my life. But I cant sleep so I cant dream therefore my mind's not right. I take a path then switch it up i'm always changes sides I end up alone. No place feels like home. In the unknown most nights. Fuck it right? I am there when they call me yet something else pops up then I'm not enough so they uninstall me Treat me like some malware act like it wasn't them who called me. Now I'm out here floating wondering where I'm going cause I cant see where I am. Dont ask me if I'm ok its apparent that I'm not. Plus my answer would sound like I'm pathetic but that's the only answer that I've got. Some people just dont get it company was all I ever sought. I'd do anything for you if we dont split in two codependency defines me y'all hit that on the spot. It's dark and rainy. Driving aimlessly. Hoping the lightning will fucking save me. The rain follows me lately and I cant see too far ahead cause it hasn't struck I'm going crazy. Maybe I need glasses or just my ass kicked I'm on the fence with all of that shit. Seems as if I'm not doing hat tricks with bunnies and magic everyone just thinks my life is tragic. Well they can have it cause I'll just pass it I dont know how much longer this is lasting I've been fasting due to all the masses of friends harassing soon I'll be dead cause I feel things crashing. Good thing these peaches hit the spot and I'll just pass out till my body rots. Probably be woken up by the cops because my car is getting hot.