Regression: Sneak Peak

why do I feel this way im so lost its so dark and Im tired I can not return in this state I wish I could wake up and do something great but thats not my fate judgment awaits I'm locked all alone with a pen and a page where is my heart i need a purpose do I deserve this NO! shut all the curtains I need the dark allow all my demons to color my art when they take control I feel my best write a new song and move to the next Im so alone Im buried in stone could somebody help me No!