Still feel pain from the lessons in life they leave scars on your heart so u can never forget Seen so many days all alone in the dark with this broken heart living with regret Cuz the pain that I caused my famil tears me apart makes me feel like my hearts getting ripped out my chest So much painthat I thought Id never make it through it I guess it was a test ,u gotta stand by family even when they loosing cuz in the end they all you got left I know that when Times get hard u begin to stress just know the Scars are their just to prove it ,that ur not like the rest And when someone u love is using and u don’t wanta say goodby but deep down inside U know u gotta do it just take the first step it’s never giving up when u tried and u trued just know in the end that u done tryed your best so this life is hard and gonna leave u scarrd just know I’m rightly by your side ready to face it You always pick me up when they try to pull me down for that I will never hit the pavement only god knows this life I never chose it’s just the lifestyle I was raised in I try to make a change but this pain in my brain got me going insane shit got me going crazy got me feeling so low ,that I can’t let it go and I don’t have no explanation like I’m stuck in the past and I keep on going back to the life that I had on the Roundvalley Reservation all the memories we shared can never be erased the love for my fam there ain’t no replacing But this feeling of guilt keeps weighing me down and I can’t seem to shake it I keep hurting the ones that mean the most to me when I know And I try to make a change but this pain in my brain got me going insane shit got me going crazy and I just hope I can swallow my pride put the pin aside and pray I don’t cave in cuz I got a family of my own that I can’t leave alone I know I should be home raising teaching my baby’swhen they grown they”l know your home is were u make it and they u be anything they wanta be with a chance u just gotta take it and love wat u have and love wat u do don’t fake it till you make it I hate that fake shit lost my little brother to the system 25 to life because some fake bitch thought we were playing I got one simple rule thats don’t fuck with my family because in the ground is where you’ll be laying b I just want it want to watch my babies grow old one day I hope I make it I can wait till the day my brother comes home can’t wait long I’m anxious and I know this life is hard but it’s not forever so please don’t waste it