This is the last time I write a song I wish I could see the sun I want to hug her but she's gone I blew it, it's done My mother wanted me to be a hard man I never listened to her advice but she was a good mom I would like to apologize but she now rests in peace The house where we lived, is now on lease I have been lazy, vicious, and street. I thought I always had the world at my feet Now I am suffering the consequences She was tired of my father and his absences Yes .. I still can't believe it The damage is already done and the wound has not retrieve This life is full of excesses and temptations To hide your bad habits you resort to Discretion My little brother says.. if only I could turn back time I would never have crossed the line But nobody knows what happens in the future.. My music doesn't need anesthesia to bake a suture No one knows what they have, until they see it lost You want to get back, what you lost, and no matter the cost But there are things that not even money can buy Now I have to say goodbye This is the last time I write a song I wish I could see the sun I want to hug her but she's gone I blew it, it's done I remember she used to say the world was a nightmare Hated the elevator and took the stairs She was a waitress at a restaurant in the bronx To go to work she walked nine blocks Everyone despised us for our Race in New York White people think perfect, was their words At Christmas time, I knew that Santa claus did not exist It was my mother who surprised us with gifts She was the wonderful woman of this land Until damn cancer snatched her, out of my hands I know it sounds sad, but I learned a lot from her But it's late, and we can't be together Life is a process, and each process comes to an end What I have told you, one day you will to understand I just want to say thank you, wherever you are and that I finally understood the advice you gave me and if I hurt you.. please forgive me. This is the last time I write a song I wish I could see the sun I want to hug her but she's gone I blew it, it's done x2 Yeah forgiveme mom #SHE'SGONE #REALSTEREOTIPEDJSEX #4THALBUM #THUGLIFE