Idk where to fucking start, cs my train of thought is running way too mother fucking hard. Im over here thinkin about everything that we went through, and thinking about everything that we used to fucking do. An all the crazy nights we used to have all the time, like when you came over to my house and you spent the night. Or even when we were both out late at night, soaking up your love while you were soaking up mine. Man I swear I miss the days when we were so close, when we was together almost everyday you know. And then I had to fucked up - so many times, and I was so fucking stupid to be making up lies. But the truth is I love you more than what you think, forgive me if I act the way I really don’t mean. But what I hate the most is I’ve hurt you physically, I never mean to hurt you baby you already know me. All I wanna do is make things better between us, cs I believe that your the one for me I put that on my grandma. I wish that If I picked up every broken piece and put it back together, that maybe we would probably last forever. Cs never have I ever loved somebody so much, I don’t know if I could repay you for everything you’ve done. All I know baby is I dont wanna ever lose you, cs you make me feel so complete and that is the truth. But I try to keep my head right everyday and night, so I pray to god and doing that makes me feel alright. I just wish that you could take it easy a bit, start being nicer and treating me less like shit. Cs after the break up, I became more sensitive, more insecure, and much more fucking ignorant. I need you to know I love you for who you are, no matter what you put me thru we have come so fucking far. One thing I think about every single day, is our baby boy Josiah and how he went away. I wish he had the chance to meet us and live his life, cs I know for a fact that he would’ve made us make it right. I guarantee we would’ve been a perfect mom and dad, and I believe my grandma and our baby boy knows that. I pray to them here and there I try and stay in touch, cs i feel like if I do I will have much better luck. But anyways you are all I want, Until the end baby I’ll never fucking stop. Not for anybody, not for anything. Just for you and a fucking diamond ring.