i lost everything battling depression ptsd add and anxiety cold sweats flash backs violent outbusts and attacks paranoia facts destroying marriage that shoukd have lasted now dead wife and best friend lost to the demons i had tried to pretend were not there again i wasnt prepared mental health declared needed help to bad it was too late and never felt hate now is how she held sitting now by myself hurts so bad i wish i was in hell please wake up this is just a spell a dream nightmare wake me up please i dont want to sleep im afraid this will be the reality please i font want to sleep if thisnis my reality