So why is it everytime I try harder then I've ever tried it seems like things get harder I'm not gonna lie im trying to be honest. Give more effort then anyone has ever had thought or considered or even tried things that were different always get  included  what's obiviously Harder  to put more  effort towards living life I've ever tried the very  endeavour begins to be extremely more difficult  then any problem I've yet to have ever been sorry  I started been blessed  come across it feels like forever is just the beginning of Something that has nothing to start  But time to be not having enough  the never that never comes  the barley almost,  but no cigar I could have. Should 've. And would've  but i wasn't prepared so i didnt. I missed out on this one last time didn't but if i go out on a limb with  a  erase it  to go out that far out on a limb isnt as bad as so close but close only counts in horse shoes and grenades that's what I've been told so far.unless  couldn't reach out that far  of things I've lost simply just because I wasn't  able to exceed the limits or reach further then the  much less  that far for some reason due to the many things I've not been able to afford the cost   the distance between what I need and what I'm r for keep getting father and father apart almost impossible  To be thinking Of   I given for anything I ever Really desired or possibly wanted but at the moment in time when i need what In  seem to find  desperatley more then I've ever needed any thing but completely just out of my reach the further I run the longer the wallk begins to turn growing In distance with every direction i turn the further Down On the ground I get the further I seem to sink the harder er I try too smile. The larger the size Of my frown my mouth  turns the opposite direction from what was I laughing about to sad unhappy inside out and upside down.