hindsight

feeling regret. because I sit alone now. alcohol. and red meat stored my fate. another night up late true hate. vegetate.and no one can relate to the trust issues I have but I kbow I will never last. too much past to make a future. I need an angelic suture to heal my soul and my vision. another stupid decission to be patient things happen fast but the past stifles my human relations. I have no idea who to trust. then i turn to lust. and pride and the death that I fear inside. but time will forever flow there is no time to hide. So I get up and do my work. even though I get paid less than what its worth. and then fall in love. but concequences have taught me enough. so I keep to myself. and need p my heart broken. because that pain is all the ive ever known. all that ive ever shown. So sorry that I cant. be like that. fake and weak isnt how I throw back. eat sleep work and get along thats my true song and I feel right doing right keeping it tight. bright fire stars in the night. shot down by the sun.