Everyone's says I'm a good dude but in my mind theres alot I wont open up to I dont mean to be rude but this world is so cruel got on my knees asking god for a second chance so I can open up to ya what did i do I was playing so cool till I went and heard the news they chopped my brotha james head off behind the skoo bottled emotions 187 flowing in my juice so.god tell.me.what to do sometimes I be so confused got me paying for my sins knocking on your door but I cant get in you protected me but I lost alot of freinds sometimes I wish it was me instead of them cuz I been blessed with so many gifts that I feel.like giving in got me riding with glock dirty looking for victims lords.knows I'm probably goin back in I wanna do the right things but right now I feel.like i jus lost a twin we was down together threw everything blu why'd you have to put a hole in arm that shit hurt me till this day i stayed sober so I can watch over you scared me have to death when I woke.up.and yo face was blu and the only thing I could do is slap you cuz you ain't dying on me but dead and gone it been so long since I got to see my big homie ever since you left I been feeling so.lonely tried a couple other homies but they all turned out phony that's why I'm riding by myself with my head to the sky I know you watching over on me said we gonna ride till the motha fukin weels fall off I guess yours broke down before me but I miss ya homie and I'm down here everyday staying strong for you and me not a day goes by were i dont miss my guys so many in the grave feel like gods paving away for me cuz the good ones go.and I'm still here earth on hell they say you gotta start from the bottom to go to the top so.maybe were in hell already r.i.p.to the lost souls dont worry cause one day will be right there with them giving hugs and reminiscing look down at our children and there children adding more additions hoping things will get better with lifes conditions just close your eyes listen open your mind to a perfect world and everybody's giving hugs and kissing then open your mind to a world were there raping killing stealing controlled by t.vs.vcrs and flat screens showing killing evil things and we all know right from wrong so I'm goin to leave it you to think you dont evan gotta ask me