all I'm trying to do Is do things right but its so hard with all the fighting but I'm still trying to do good even though I keep getting pushed down and curssed out and I starting swerve out of life and become heartless thoughtless filled darkness and it was happening so fast i feel like a slow tortoise helpless restless dont know what to do everything is filled with darkness I feel heartless gunshots go off in my head for a second I whish I was dead I feel discomfort sunburnt for a second I wondered if this was even real I felt heartless thoughtless out of control felt like I wanted to hide from the word so I did I felt fast amazing blazing with speed I felt like I've been freed I felt harmless lawless felt like I just made a unstoppable fortress I felt full like I did everything I wanted to do with my life I felt comfortable calm absolutely amazing as I ran in the distance I was free.